what's my motivation?

I think I might be undermotivated. Undermotivated to do everything. I am a simple creature. Not much can keep me occupied and interested for a prolonged ammount of time. Even when something needs to be done, I say to me "there are other things that I rather be doing." Isn't that terrible? Don't answer that--I already know the answer. It is pitiful. Things I must do I cannot convince myself to do. Who must I do these things for? I must come up with a compelling reason. I only try to please those I love and respect. If you are Joe Stranger, chances are that I will not go out of my way for you. That is bad. I feel as if my heart should break for those in need--no matter if I know them or not. Lesson number 2: I need to learn how to unconditionally care for everyone.