sick cycle

this is my life: commitment, motivation, mistake, depression. Don't worry, not clinical. In fact, I probably am making small problems into big ones, but this is me inside this head, not you. I don't mean to be sharp, but the fact is that I cannot stand my life. Yet I love my life. I think that everything in life is a balance. That is why I am never satisfied. As soon as I think something is sufficient, it gets out of balance. Lesson 1 learned: Since I think all things are a balance, it is damn near impossible for me to find satifaction.