broken record

I am still on the same cycle of commitment, motivation, mistake, etc. It's a sick cycle as I've said before, but I am still trying to get over it. I will get over it. It's amazing how my state of mind can change so suddenly and rapidly. I can be motivated and then frustrated the next minute. I'm like night and day. At least I am not stoic and boring. I think I need to look at the bright side of things more. I think I am too pessamistic when it comes to myself, but optimistic when it comes to other people. Over time I've seen my problems lose focus on other people and focus on myself. What I mean is that I am not having problems forgiving people, or loving people, or anything like that; but I am hard on myself, and I cannot get myself to change. We'll see how that pans out.