Never Enough

everything's gotta be my tme. I have come to the point where I will not go out of the way for anyone. What has happened to me? It used to be that I would not mind inconveniencing myself for the sake of someone else. I am not saying that I was perfect. Far from it actually, but I was going in the right direction. Now I am not even stumbling in the right direction; I am either still or going in the wrong direction. Bottom line is that I need to love other people and love myself so that I can accept God's love for me. Let's face it, I have a hard time accepting God's love. This is because He has done everything for me and all I can do for him is not enough. He has forgiven my sins and taken me back countless times, and I have turned countless times. My greatest deeds are meaningless. But God does not expect me to amount to His love. He expects my honest effort and my best. I kno my best is not good enough, but that's beside the point. The point is that I am giving him my all. A-L-L. That's all, mama.
Lesson: I need to love others and myself to accept Christ's Love.