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I've broken up with a girl twice, well, among the serious ones twice. No matter the reason sI gave, the major one was this: I was bored. You see, I find a thrill in getting girls to like me. I do it to almost all girls I meet. I try to get them to like me. After I'm convinced that they like me, I'm done with them. If I am attracted to them, I go out with them. I do this until I get bored I guess. In the two times that I mentioned, the girl was so obsessed and infactuated with me that it caused me to not like being with her anymore. I think what happened was I had nothing to work for. No matter what I did, I could not get that girl to like me more. It took the fun and excitement out of the relationship. Am I using girls? Am I doing something wrong? Those are my minor concerns. This is my major concern: the girl I am with now. I really care about her. She is different. I know you say that about every girl, but this is different. She is innocent, she is fragile, she is deserving of someone that will really care for her. I hope I can do this. I want to do this. I need to smooth my rough edges to love her. I know you're not supposed to change yourself for someone else, but there is a difference between someone changing you and someone making you into the person you want to be. Back to my original point, I don't want to become bored with her. I want everything to feel fresh and new, yet familiar. All I have is hope. I hope that this one is different. I hope that the normal rules don't apply. I hope that I can take this seriously. I hope